i took a break today
from caring too much.
ate grilled cheese and onion rings at the same meal -
mixed the colors and whites in the washing machine -
turned off the ringer on a work day.

i asked once, when the sun hit my cheek -
as if it were July and not November -
how to be useful,
even in the midst of trying not to care.
there was never a time when i did not feel lucky.

i like to watch people come and go
in a certain hurry -
as if they too could forget 
the things that really matter.

it's impossible though,
to take your heart outside of something.
it just stands there beating
"i see you"
"i see you"
"i see you."