i wanted so much to be proud of who we were becoming but when things didn't go my way i was furious. angry at the world irate at people i love mad even at the sun for shining its "haven't-a-care-in-the-world" kind of shine - today of all days. then i remembered a promise i made myself one time long ago - when words really mattered. always no matter what i will look for the light. always no matter what i will find a way home.